A Moment of Roses

Its quite sad really... that our world has become so fast-paced that the only way to make you stop and smell the flowers is to sucker-punch you in the gut so that you're immobilized for a short while. Well, God really let me have it. I'm face-down in flowers right now, still writhing in pain.

While my gut is still 'inflamed', I'm really re-thinking my life and my actions slowly as each excruciating moment passes me by. Superficially, I've come to love my intestines and appreciate the grueling work I put them through each time I munch down on some random cookie-muffin thingy.

On the other hand, I've come to really appreciate the people who truly understand and care for me ^^ Like my family and relatives who gladly pushed me the easier items of food to chew on... who made sure I didn't 'accidentally' chow down on gas-inducing items and junk food. Mom and Dad made sure we got home as soon as possible so that I could climb into bed and writhe the night through XDD Carren poured helpful suggestions about taking care of my digestive tract (which I've listened to attentively and will implement over the long-run!)... And not to mention all my dear friends who found out and prayed for me (: I think they're all partially the reason I've lived till now.

The second (and more important) factor, is definitely God. Y'know sometimes in order to discipline Campbell, we treat her really badly? I'm not saying God treats me like a dog O.O (although I rightly should be) I'm just saying that sometimes, in order to teach us an important lesson, He disciplines us by unfolding His protective layer a wee bit to allow the wilds of the World to get to us. But of course, anything God allows into our lives, He definitely has the power to remove (: And I'm sure when I've thoroughly learnt my lesson, the stomach flu will fade... Here's to hoping the lesson doesn't fade as well ((:


Jonah's Prayer
1 From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the LORD his God. 2 He said:
"In my distress I called to the LORD,
and he answered me.
From the depths of the grave [a] I called for help,
and you listened to my cry.

Relying on God

When, in the whole history of maladies and unfortunate events, have you heard about a person having STOMACH FLU before the Chinese New Year holidays? X.X And yet, that's exactly what I got. On Thursday, I'd gone home before CC started because I suspected I was falling ill. Alas, it was the Stomach Flu bug creeping up behind me. That night was spent tossing around in bed with this constant feeling that someone was sitting on my stomach. (That what happens when your intestines are clogged up X.X) Skipped lecture the next day... but I had to drag myself to school for yi gu wen. I spent 12 hours sleeping! Well, I guess that's not too bad (: Finally at 3 am, I felt muuuch better.

But that's only because God, in all His Mercy, laid His healing hands on me (: He heard my pain and provided the relief. I mean, He didn't heal me immediately.. instead He allowed enough time for me to realised how important a healthy body is. And now I resolve not to stuff anymore unhealthy things into my body. The Lord teaches us different things in so many ways (: It might be painful sometimes... but I'm glad He takes the time to discipline us anyway ^^

Power under Control

Pastor Rony said something today that I thought was immensely worth thinking about... Everyone, Christian or not, knows that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. That He suffered an immense amount of pain. That He bore on stripe for every portion of our body so that even our illnesses were borne by Him into Hell. But do we really know how much He paid that day?

The Bible said Jesus humbled Himself and came down as an ordinary man to live amongst humans, to live like them and be tempted just like we are today. Yes, tempted... like how powerful men abuse their position and power to control other people. Or how even little kids no older than 9 use their position as a bigger and stronger boy/girl to bully smaller and seemingly weaker children. All over the world, except for a select few, the biggest problem for any one person is the abuse of power.

Not only relationship-wise, people who have the internet or a computer use it to fashion 'incurable' computer viruses and send them through deceptively harmless e-mails. Teenagers who have a few extra dollars than their friends use money to buy goods just to spite their monetarily-unequal peer. Me? I've had my share too... including speaking other languages to get through a heavily-crowded area. It seems that whenever we can, we'd use our power to our advantage... I mean, that's survival right? Even the angelic ones crumble in the face of immense temptation, and the saints, in times of desperate need.

Jesus was about to die. And he was about to die for people who were laughing at Him, mocking Him and even spitting on Him. It wasn't His burden to bear, so why did God want Him to die for undeserving humans? Who were created from dust and could just as easily be returned to dust. Behind Him, hordes of angels flew in military-order waiting for Jesus to say the word and they would all swoop down and slaughter all of the sinners. At His command, the Earth would have blown up!

But you know what, He didn't.

He stayed on that cross. And I think that's the crux of the story... that He stayed on that cross. For you and me (:

God be praised for that.

This world is not for me

I'll never be good enough for this world...
But have been made perfect in His love (:

Dear God, I'm ready to be set apart by you. Ready to give this world up for You.

送之志洋

你是我伯牙的钟期，我夷吾的鲍叔。 （：
我杰好朋友～
多谢你的耐心。

And so, I dedicate this song to our friendship ((: