I can't say much more than that there isn't a finer PoT Cosplay team around XPP
Thursday, December 31, 2009
PoT-ness
Thanks to Sonia for this! ((:
I can't say much more than that there isn't a finer PoT Cosplay team around XPP
I can't say much more than that there isn't a finer PoT Cosplay team around XPP
Friday, December 18, 2009
Flying off
I'm flying off in -counts quickly- 10 hours' time! (: Oh boy oh boy! I can almost taste the honey-back ribs over a hot charcoal grill... and the smell of large cookies all around a tinsel-covered, christmas lights-lit town ~ ^^ Okay. So I'm romanticizing... but let me to my imagination ((: and while you're at it, wish me journey mercy and Godspeed!
I've always had a problem with flying though... I mean, the prospects of crashing. I know the odds are terribly low. More often than not, when a plane crashes, every nation knows about it and the whole world weeps for your soul. I know I know - Touchwood. But the night before the flight, I will never fail to have this terrible rumbling in the nether regions of my stomach that braces me for the possibility of leaving this world - and you my lovely reader, behind. I mean, I'm not afraid (if God suddenly says its my time). I know where I'm going (: My only regret, would be all those times I committed sins unto God and unto the people around me and have not repaid it yet to that person, or even sought for their forgiveness. That's why I cross my fingers when we fly and pray for good weather.
The Lament of Sharyl
I've done my share of foolish things in the past.. and all in all, I've hurt many many people. But I think I've hurt more people not doing things than actually doing anything. My APATHY is my greatest vice and I intend to change that! ... later. Haha. See?!
But quick to the point, to everyone and anyone that I've made angry, frustrated, cry, sad or even harbour a little of antagonistic feeling towards me, I'm sorry. Its my fault and I'll do my best to change. And I really mean it this time... As 2009 comes to an end, and 2010 comes, I can't guarantee Sharyl will change. But it will be Sharyl and the determination to change ((: and I'll make it a reality. With plenty of help from God, of course ^^
Once again, I'm sorry for all the heartache and trouble I've caused... please, if I could help in any way, tell me (: Let it be my burden to bear. -hugs-
And just in case (not saying that it will), I don't make it back from this (or any other trip), let it be documented here that I love each and every one of you (: And my intentions towards all of you, have been nothing but the best at this moment of sanity and clear-thought. I'd wish you the world, if it'd come true... but while I'm still working on that, I wish you the best you can muster ((: and all that I can muster, till my dying breath. I love you. I really do.
With more love,
Sharyl
I've always had a problem with flying though... I mean, the prospects of crashing. I know the odds are terribly low. More often than not, when a plane crashes, every nation knows about it and the whole world weeps for your soul. I know I know - Touchwood. But the night before the flight, I will never fail to have this terrible rumbling in the nether regions of my stomach that braces me for the possibility of leaving this world - and you my lovely reader, behind. I mean, I'm not afraid (if God suddenly says its my time). I know where I'm going (: My only regret, would be all those times I committed sins unto God and unto the people around me and have not repaid it yet to that person, or even sought for their forgiveness. That's why I cross my fingers when we fly and pray for good weather.
I've done my share of foolish things in the past.. and all in all, I've hurt many many people. But I think I've hurt more people not doing things than actually doing anything. My APATHY is my greatest vice and I intend to change that! ... later. Haha. See?!
But quick to the point, to everyone and anyone that I've made angry, frustrated, cry, sad or even harbour a little of antagonistic feeling towards me, I'm sorry. Its my fault and I'll do my best to change. And I really mean it this time... As 2009 comes to an end, and 2010 comes, I can't guarantee Sharyl will change. But it will be Sharyl and the determination to change ((: and I'll make it a reality. With plenty of help from God, of course ^^
Once again, I'm sorry for all the heartache and trouble I've caused... please, if I could help in any way, tell me (: Let it be my burden to bear. -hugs-
And just in case (not saying that it will), I don't make it back from this (or any other trip), let it be documented here that I love each and every one of you (: And my intentions towards all of you, have been nothing but the best at this moment of sanity and clear-thought. I'd wish you the world, if it'd come true... but while I'm still working on that, I wish you the best you can muster ((: and all that I can muster, till my dying breath. I love you. I really do.
With more love,
Sharyl
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
A reminder (:
Sometimes, we need a little nudge to remind us that we're being too proud and living life wrong... sometimes we need a real good shove XD Either way, I thank You God, for having the patience to test me in flames, break and re-mold me and forge me within the fires ^^ I know in time I will be a brilliant diamond by Your hand! But until that day, I will do my best to live right! And that means to stop being so proud XD I just want to be more and more like You everyday (:
Yours Sincerely,
Sharyl
Sunday, December 13, 2009
My Prayer for You - from God
"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.
"Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world.
"Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."
Sometimes, Jesus, I wonder how much You cried that night...
How tight You plastered Your palms together...
How much You loved us that night...
I'll never know.
Words will never express exactly how much You sacrificed.
But with all I do know, I thank You for each bead of blood-sweat You shed
And every tear that hit that hallowed ground.
God, I surrender to Your love (:
Thank You.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Running with God
What an adventure!
I wonder what makes a person to even start to conceive a crazy thought. However it happens, it sparked off something in me last night. And BOOM! Suddenly I'm running with nothing but my handphone, bus pass, mp3 and house keys en route to Bukit Timah via Holland Road. Yup! I don't even know how long that is. But no matter! =DD
Okay... so I cheated. I didn't run ALL the way. I didn't know how to get from Jurong East to Clementi, so I took the train through that part. Don't worry! I drank a GALLON of water before setting off ((: And then I found out that even if you stop to walk (quite) a bit, it takes you approximately 2 hours to get to Liz's house (That's on Coronation Drive). Well... minus all the wrong turns you take because you're utterly lost in Liz's Estate XDD haha.
Looking outside my window now, the dark clouds are starting to form. Usually, I'd have a terrible sense of foreboding, because I'd think God was angry at me... But now, I'm feeling more relief (: Like God held back the rain because He knew I was running. The night before, my prayer went something along the lines of,
"Dear God, I know You know that I'm crazy. And I want to run to Bukit Timah tomorrow... will You come with me? I know You'll protect me. And I'll make it through (:"
And boy did He! (: Throughout the not-so-gruelling run, it felt like someone was beside me, pacing me and making sure I didn't fall or hurt myself. Even when I was lost in Liz's estate, there was someone egging me on to be bold and try another route. I know He was there too when Liz and I were running in the hot midday sun (:
Its 1.31pm now. The day has barely begun! ((: And I'm glad it began with God.
Dear God,
Thank You so much for accepting my invitation to run! I'm so sorry You have to put up with my eccentric tendencies and weird ideas... Thank you also for keeping the weather nice and warm (not too hot) and for staying the rain until I reached home ^^ God... I'm so glad that I have such an awesome life and I get to do this and have what seems like everything in the world! I know somewhere along the way, there'll be times I want to die again... but I pray that I'll remember this time and be thankful (: I'm growing up (although I don't look like it) and I'm learning new things (: But even as I move on to longer routes, higher mountains and deeper seas... can I hold Your hand through it all?
With love,
Sharyl
P.S. Love you God.
Note to Liz: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR RUNNING WITH ME TODAY! ((: AND OH MY GOODNESS YOU'VE GOTTEN SO AMAZINGLY THIN!! KEEP IT UP! ((: WE'LL TRIM DOWN TO 45 KG TOGETHER!! I LOVE YOU!
I wonder what makes a person to even start to conceive a crazy thought. However it happens, it sparked off something in me last night. And BOOM! Suddenly I'm running with nothing but my handphone, bus pass, mp3 and house keys en route to Bukit Timah via Holland Road. Yup! I don't even know how long that is. But no matter! =DD
Okay... so I cheated. I didn't run ALL the way. I didn't know how to get from Jurong East to Clementi, so I took the train through that part. Don't worry! I drank a GALLON of water before setting off ((: And then I found out that even if you stop to walk (quite) a bit, it takes you approximately 2 hours to get to Liz's house (That's on Coronation Drive). Well... minus all the wrong turns you take because you're utterly lost in Liz's Estate XDD haha.
Looking outside my window now, the dark clouds are starting to form. Usually, I'd have a terrible sense of foreboding, because I'd think God was angry at me... But now, I'm feeling more relief (: Like God held back the rain because He knew I was running. The night before, my prayer went something along the lines of,
"Dear God, I know You know that I'm crazy. And I want to run to Bukit Timah tomorrow... will You come with me? I know You'll protect me. And I'll make it through (:"
And boy did He! (: Throughout the not-so-gruelling run, it felt like someone was beside me, pacing me and making sure I didn't fall or hurt myself. Even when I was lost in Liz's estate, there was someone egging me on to be bold and try another route. I know He was there too when Liz and I were running in the hot midday sun (:
Its 1.31pm now. The day has barely begun! ((: And I'm glad it began with God.
Dear God,
Thank You so much for accepting my invitation to run! I'm so sorry You have to put up with my eccentric tendencies and weird ideas... Thank you also for keeping the weather nice and warm (not too hot) and for staying the rain until I reached home ^^ God... I'm so glad that I have such an awesome life and I get to do this and have what seems like everything in the world! I know somewhere along the way, there'll be times I want to die again... but I pray that I'll remember this time and be thankful (: I'm growing up (although I don't look like it) and I'm learning new things (: But even as I move on to longer routes, higher mountains and deeper seas... can I hold Your hand through it all?
With love,
Sharyl
P.S. Love you God.
Note to Liz: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR RUNNING WITH ME TODAY! ((: AND OH MY GOODNESS YOU'VE GOTTEN SO AMAZINGLY THIN!! KEEP IT UP! ((: WE'LL TRIM DOWN TO 45 KG TOGETHER!! I LOVE YOU!
Monday, December 7, 2009
How Great Thou Art (:
Dear God,
Everytime I forget about what You've taught me, You always remind me of Your greatness (: And dear God, I am redeemed again ((: In the darkness of this blighted night, Your comforting embrace has lifted me high about my iniquities. I can still remember the conclusion we came to, dear God, about why I'm short... Haha. We laughed so much about it ((: It has been too long since I've laughed with You...
Why Sharyl is Short
You used to say that my height was a representation of the one trait I should always keep close to me (: - Child-like behaviour. I mean... no screaming and running around doing stupid Childish things. But to remain innocent, inquisitive and above all - to be most willing to love, to be hurt and to forgive. God, I still feel hurt when people tease me about my height, sometimes. However, I'll stand proudly at 150 cm (: Because no matter what the magazines and the television sets say about height, I'm sticking to my height. Because this World means nothing to me and I'm flying straight into Your arms. God, I'll gladly be short for you ^^ I'll be your child-like muffinstrawberrypie daughter-of-God (: Forever and ever. and ever.
I'll stand on top of a mountain and shout that out, Oh God (: So You'll be able to hear it without straining too much from Your Throne (just kidding). Dear God, I live another day. But no longer for me, for my family, for Edmund or my friends. But for YOU. And God here, I proudly shout out to the entire world to hear! Crazy I may be, but only because I'm Crazy For God! ((:
With much love,
Sealed in regret and repentance,
Sharyl
Hey God...
Saturday, December 5, 2009
青花瓷
青花瓷 Qing Hua Ci
作词：方文山 Lyrics by: Vincent Fang
作曲：周杰伦 Composed by Jay Chou
Translated by : Suet Mei (myJAYsian)
素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡
su bei gou le chu qing hua bi feng nong zhuan dan
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
ping shen miao hui de mu dan yi ru ni chu zhuang
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
ran ran tan xiang tou guo chuang xin shi wo liao ran
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半
xuan zhi shang zou bi zhi ci ge yi ban
釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏
you se xuan ran shi nu tu yun wei bei si cang
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
er ni yan ran de yi xiao ru han bao dai fang
你的美一缕飘散
ni de mei yi lu piao san
去到我去不了的地方
qu dao wo qu bu liao de di fang
＃天青色等烟雨 而我在等你
tian qing se deng yan yu er wo zai deng ni
炊烟袅袅升起 隔江千万里
cui yan miao miao sheng qi ge jiang qian wan li
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
zai ping di shu han li fang qian chao de piao yi
就当我为遇见你伏笔
jiu dang wo wei yu jian ni fu bi
＊天青色等烟雨 而我在等你
tian qing se deng yan yu er wo zai deng ni
月色被打捞起 晕开了结局
yue se bei da lao qi yun kai le jie ju
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽
ru chuan shi de qing hua ci zi gu zi mei li
你眼带笑意
ni yan dai xiao yi
色白花青的锦鲤跃然于碗底
se bai hua qing de jing li yue ran yu wan di
临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你
ling mo song ti luo kuan shi que dian ji zhe ni
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密
ni ying cang zai yao shao li qian nian de mi mi
极细腻犹如绣花针落地
ji xi ni you ru xiu hua zhen luo di
帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿
lian wai ba jiao re zhou yu men huan re tong lv
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
er wo lu guo na jiang nan xiao zhen re le ni
在泼墨山水画里
zai po mo shan shui hua li
你从墨色深处被隐去
ni chong mo se shen chu bei ying qu
Some songs were just never meant to be translated (:
I love you, English. But Chinese is right.
There are some things you can't do.
But I remain faithful ((: ... and a little adulterous.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
花木兰
Okay. I sectioned it. If you don't want to hear this portion, please proceed to the next one, comprendo?~ (: I even have the music to match! For like Socrates once said, the melody is a vital part of a play and of life.
The Emo Portion
Yup! Its the end of my exams but for some reason, all the hype about the end of exams isn't really all I made it out to be. The end of exams kinda ushered in a few disappointments for me. For example, I lost my matriculation in the sea of people rushing out of the hall. Haha. I bet its stuck to someone's shoe right this moment. But we shouldn't talk about depressing things! Because God is good and bad things never last (: ... I suppose its partially because I find it infinitely impossible to really talk about bad things on a blog. The world's messed up as it is.
Donovan told me yesterday that I had to be the happiest girl in the world. Well, I'm not. Its just that I've seen enough gore, made enough mistakes, given my heart away to things that turn on me too many times and cried enough tears to know that nothing on this world is worth crying for. That's why I smile. The smile you see everyday is a fragmented one - a desperate war cry against the things that threaten to engulf me. A war cry I'm still attempting to share. And every time someone smiles, it redeems my sundered soul again.
I don't know the first thing about being truly happy, but I do know that I'm the most blessed girl in world ((: God, my Family, a good home, awesome friends and a loving boyfriend ^^ But as the world goes, it does mess up your perception of that and sometimes it feels like you're the poorest, most neglected person on earth.
But we just have to remind ourselves again ^^ There's just too much to live for.
The Happy-pappy Part
I went out with Eileen today! Haha. She told me to pick any movie, so I picked out 'Mulan'. Y'know, the new approximately-historically-correct film about the age-old tale of the chinese heroine who posed as a male in the Chinese army? -breathe- Haha. It turns out that its was a big loud and violent... AND INCREDULOUS! But it wasn't the killing or the pent-up Chinese emotion displayed in political dialectics that got me on the edge of my seat. (nor was it the seemingly misplaced caucasian in the Rouran camp...) It was the emotional content of the whole love-hate relationship between Hua Mulan and her duties as General (And of course her feelings for the 7th Prince). I found myself crying over and over again every time she came to an emotional impasse. Maybe its because I felt just as lost in life. But her victory over her own psychological hurdles and obstacles soon won her the place of 'General' (: A woman~
Later, I was dragged all over Jurong Point. Okay. Not dragged (: Because I was enjoying the shopping too XDD -points to new pair of shoes- They're worth it, I swear! But yes ^^ Shopping with Eileen proved to be an FANTABULOUSLY Awesome idea ((: Haha. Although Eileen was pretty tired after that (and she still had the strength to pull herself to CCK!), and I was pretty pooped out, I kinda liked being dragged around Jurong Point. Haha (: Love you, Eileen!
Oh oh! Before meeting Eileen, I met made a trip down to the LWN library to see our awesome new library friends, well, just one of them - Donovan. And he gave me a bun! (: I know it doesn't sound like much to you, but for a BREAD FANATIC like me, its like receiving a gold bar XPP An edible gold bar!
and my fingernails are now LIME GREEN
maybeonedayI'lltellyouandyou'dunderstand.untilthen,i'msorry.youweren'tsupposedtomeanthismuchtome.turnleft.I'llheadright.we'llmeetagainoneday.promisemeyou'llsmilewhenwedo.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Almost there! ((:
For some reason, waiting for your examinations to pass you by is almost like a terrible stomachache >.< I hereby apologize for any non-palatable images that have just popped into your brain (: As for me, my brain having fused long ago, am immune to the idea of comparing doing examinations to taking a dump.
Now you know I've gone mad. Either with Biostatistics or the nearing idea of freedom!
Whichever...
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
安慰的面孔
“but i just want you to know that even though we are small and weak.. and imperfect. we are the apple of God's eye. and after all, you're edmund's cookie。”
秀君，你的金玉良言我会珍惜一辈子的 (:
Thank you Liz.
秀君，你的金玉良言我会珍惜一辈子的 (:
Thank you Liz.
志洋，对不起。
我们已经三个星期没见面了。。。
对不起。。。我偏偏要在八点才出现。。。
你要相信我， 我真的很想你。。。你不要伤心好吗？
这三个星期没有你真的好奇怪。
我也不知道为什么。。。
今天我突然觉得。。。 我不配。
对不起。。。 让你失望。。。
请原谅我。
Buy me a smile (:
I saw this today (: Its MacDonald's new initiative for unfortunate children ^^ Its called 'Buy a Smile'. And that really set my thinking. Which is a miracle after the arduous 2 hours we sat through in Nanyang Auditorium just hammering out essays. But we are people of mettle! And we'll survive this, yeah? (:
The point is, I saw the words 'Buy a smile' and thought, "wow.". At that moment, that was the only thing that ran through my head. But as I assimilated the thought on the way home, one prominent question was floating around in my head, "Can you truly buy a smile?".
Well, I suppose you could (: On the streets, when you give a heartbroken beggar some money, or buy a tissue packet from an aunty near the MRT stations... Just a simple dollar or two puts a toothless smile on their time-worn faces (: Sometimes when your friend forgets to bring his or her wallet, a dollar is enough to send her home... and put a smile on her face (:
I guess you could buy a smile... but not with that one dollar coin in your pocket. You can only buy a smile with a willing heart (: I suppose the real lesson in giving 2 dollars for a paper smile isn't that you should think money can buy you real happiness... but its the actualization of an action that buys a smile ^^ It doesn't matter whether its a cheque for a million dollars, a gold bar or a simple smile. Sometimes we underestimate the worth of a hug as opposed to mere words on a text message or a well-wish. Its a step forward to actually getting closer to actual, physical happiness, I guess (:
And that's all people need... one step.
and one smile.
Buy a smile today (:
Monday, November 23, 2009
Cookies and Milk
deux vers le bas et 4 pour aller!
I just completed 2 examinations today (:
And I also walked home! Haha. I had a thought on the way home.
GOD IS AWESOME!
Other than that, I was thinking of cookies and milk ^^ Why cookies and milk? Well... because I believe that everyone on earth is like a different dish. Some people are warm and comforting like piping hot chicken soup on a cold day... some people are spicy and popular amongst the locals like laksa. Some people are cold and rigid like ice-cream, but are loved anyway (: Some people, like me, are like cookies.
Why cookies? Because we're small and often come in round shapes (like circles? hahahaha.). My Mom says I'm like a cookie because I'm small, sweet, cute and lovable ... and chewy. Well, that's what Eileen says too. Haha. I, on the other hand, feel that I'm a cookie because I'm deceptively innocent to most people, until you take a bite out of me and find out I can give you diabetes AND atherosclerosis at the same time! Buahahaha. But I'm also a cookie because I seem tough and strong, but all you have to do it add a little pressure or get me a little bit wet and I'll break into two or fall apart.
Cookie-people come in different shapes and sizes. We also have different fillings. Some people like some cookies more than others. Other people simply can't accept some cookies. For example, I can't eat chocolate chip cookies because I'm allergic to chocolate. Kinda like how a model would never talk to a vagabond. In life, you will encounter a lot of cookie-people. In life, you will find out which type of cookie-person you like the most (: And if you're the right type of food, you'll find that you will go well with a particular cookie-person as a set and can take your relationship to another picnic table (: (er. I mean level.)
That's how I see Edmund's relation with me, I suppose (: Edmund is like milk.
He can be drunk hot or cold. And in both ways, he's just as lovable ^^ When the weather's cold outside and its pouring like the Niagara Falls, he's perfect when he's warm ^^ On a hot day, when you just want to laze around and not do the things you need to get done, he's a great energizer and motivator (: -whispers- When Edmund's cold, he's a tough motivator. -nods-
But more importantly, he's a perfect complement for me! ((: Hee hee. Cookies and milk. Together, we're every little child's comfort, every woman's sin and every man's staple XP Although you could consume cookies and milk separately and be happy, when you have them both together, it adds a little more magic in your life. Especially after a tough examination paper. No one really know how the cookie and milk got together, heck, even the cookies and milk don't understand. All we know is, when we dip cookies into milk and we taste the love in that confectionery bond, we don't have to ask any more questions ^^
Cookies and Milk FTW!
... okay. Now I'm hungry.
P.S. To all those cookies out there, I hope you find your glass of milk soon! ((:
I just completed 2 examinations today (:
And I also walked home! Haha. I had a thought on the way home.
Other than that, I was thinking of cookies and milk ^^ Why cookies and milk? Well... because I believe that everyone on earth is like a different dish. Some people are warm and comforting like piping hot chicken soup on a cold day... some people are spicy and popular amongst the locals like laksa. Some people are cold and rigid like ice-cream, but are loved anyway (: Some people, like me, are like cookies.
Why cookies? Because we're small and often come in round shapes (like circles? hahahaha.). My Mom says I'm like a cookie because I'm small, sweet, cute and lovable ... and chewy. Well, that's what Eileen says too. Haha. I, on the other hand, feel that I'm a cookie because I'm deceptively innocent to most people, until you take a bite out of me and find out I can give you diabetes AND atherosclerosis at the same time! Buahahaha. But I'm also a cookie because I seem tough and strong, but all you have to do it add a little pressure or get me a little bit wet and I'll break into two or fall apart.
Cookie-people come in different shapes and sizes. We also have different fillings. Some people like some cookies more than others. Other people simply can't accept some cookies. For example, I can't eat chocolate chip cookies because I'm allergic to chocolate. Kinda like how a model would never talk to a vagabond. In life, you will encounter a lot of cookie-people. In life, you will find out which type of cookie-person you like the most (: And if you're the right type of food, you'll find that you will go well with a particular cookie-person as a set and can take your relationship to another picnic table (: (er. I mean level.)
That's how I see Edmund's relation with me, I suppose (: Edmund is like milk.
He can be drunk hot or cold. And in both ways, he's just as lovable ^^ When the weather's cold outside and its pouring like the Niagara Falls, he's perfect when he's warm ^^ On a hot day, when you just want to laze around and not do the things you need to get done, he's a great energizer and motivator (: -whispers- When Edmund's cold, he's a tough motivator. -nods-
But more importantly, he's a perfect complement for me! ((: Hee hee. Cookies and milk. Together, we're every little child's comfort, every woman's sin and every man's staple XP Although you could consume cookies and milk separately and be happy, when you have them both together, it adds a little more magic in your life. Especially after a tough examination paper. No one really know how the cookie and milk got together, heck, even the cookies and milk don't understand. All we know is, when we dip cookies into milk and we taste the love in that confectionery bond, we don't have to ask any more questions ^^
Cookies and Milk FTW!
... okay. Now I'm hungry.
P.S. To all those cookies out there, I hope you find your glass of milk soon! ((:
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Ce un nouveau jour~ merci mon Dieu pour votre amour~
Its a new day! (: Today is also the day of my Grandfather's funeral. Sigh. We're sending him off in a while. Pretty soon, in fact.
HL815
Aristotle said that a play's or art's true purpose is 'Catharsis' - the purging of the soul. Although I never really knew Aristotle, I find this so intimately true. All the World's stage and we're merely actor and actresses in it. Each event God has structured in His perfect manuscript is an event meant to develop the character. As such he introduces events that causes us, ironically also the audience, step back and take a look at the whole picture (Alienation and imitative resemblance). In the process, we learn and grow. (What doesn't kill us, helps us to become better people right?) In this we recognise that our world, apart from the love of Christ, is naught but a simulcrum we've constructed on stereotypes and biases. There is no true love anymore... save the stereotypes of love we perceive to be and the FORM of love held in God's hands. A person's character is what the media makes it out to be. So to break through the Simulcra, God lets these bad things happen to us. To pull us back to Him. Although its painful, it purifies our soul and purges the evil in our thoughts - that our form is laid bare at the very moment. And we may approach the form of all Love. And be immersed in it. Voila (: Here life resembles the doll house . But in God, we have found our true Identity. Though crushed, we are made whole.
There (: I just summarised all the themes for HL815 into my experience this few days. But the bottomline is? I've learnt my lesson this round... and because of this trial, through my treasured Lord, I'm now stronger (:
But I couldn't have done it without such awesome friends who know how to cheer me up (: Thank you all for your words of encouragement and for making each day on this wretch earth more and more bearable to live in.
HL815
Aristotle said that a play's or art's true purpose is 'Catharsis' - the purging of the soul. Although I never really knew Aristotle, I find this so intimately true. All the World's stage and we're merely actor and actresses in it. Each event God has structured in His perfect manuscript is an event meant to develop the character. As such he introduces events that causes us, ironically also the audience, step back and take a look at the whole picture (Alienation and imitative resemblance). In the process, we learn and grow. (What doesn't kill us, helps us to become better people right?) In this we recognise that our world, apart from the love of Christ, is naught but a simulcrum we've constructed on stereotypes and biases. There is no true love anymore... save the stereotypes of love we perceive to be and the FORM of love held in God's hands. A person's character is what the media makes it out to be. So to break through the Simulcra, God lets these bad things happen to us. To pull us back to Him. Although its painful, it purifies our soul and purges the evil in our thoughts - that our form is laid bare at the very moment. And we may approach the form of all Love. And be immersed in it. Voila (: Here life resembles the doll house . But in God, we have found our true Identity. Though crushed, we are made whole.
There (: I just summarised all the themes for HL815 into my experience this few days. But the bottomline is? I've learnt my lesson this round... and because of this trial, through my treasured Lord, I'm now stronger (:
But I couldn't have done it without such awesome friends who know how to cheer me up (: Thank you all for your words of encouragement and for making each day on this wretch earth more and more bearable to live in.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Je vous verrez à nouveau
Today has been one heck of a day...
There are no simple words that come to mind when I think about today...
But I remember looking at him, just lying there. He looks exactly like how he looks when he's sleeping... I remember saying that about my grandma 1 year ago.
I must admit, it hasn't been an easy 2 weeks. I wish it had went better, but it didn't. And God knows, my heart is drifting further away from Him every time I give in to the naggy voice inside of me that's telling me to give up.
A big thanks to everyone who messaged me and even tried to call me to comfort me (: I'm greatly comforted by your kind thoughts and the re-assurance you've given me. We're actually okay... I mean, we're sad that he's moved on.. but he led a full life and he went on peacefully... and he's probably having supper with God right now in Heaven~ Please don't worry~ We're doing alright (: And things will look up.
Eileen was right. I am lucky to have such an awesome grandpa, and I'll always remember the way he smiles and the things he likes to eat... At times I'll be sad when I remember such things. But I'll also remember that he'd want us to be happy and to do the things that make us happy. So that's what I'm going to do (: I"ll be happy. And everytime I smile, I'll remember that I'm smiling for him. And for God (: and for everything that you guys messaged me about - strength, courage and love.
你的千羽鶴我也收到了。
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
想念你
－波未平，一波再起。。。
Dear Grandpa,
I remember. I just wanted to tell you that T_T. I remember when I was young and you loved me so much that you took me to the airport everyday. I remember standing at the viewing gallery with you, and we used to watch the airplanes take off. Sometimes, you'd hold me so tight that I'd have a little hand print on my side. But I knew it was because you couldn't bear to drop me. Your laugh was so wholesome and so hearty, it would infect me with smiles and joy ^^ Can you remember the time you took us out and the car door swung open as we left the carpark? Haha. The fuss we took to close the door. You kept the engine running and ran out to close it. Haha. I still don't know how you did it... But now I know, Its because you're my Super Grandpa (:
Then you had a stroke. And it took away your ability to move T___T But that didn't stop you from laughing when I did something silly (: Then the devil gave you another stroke... still you refused to stop laughing. Your new laughter was my source of unlimited joy ^^ When you laughed, the whole world stopped for a moment and it seemed like nothing in the world could ever get me down again... Even without the ability to raise your lips in a proper smile, you'd lift your hand (: And that was enough. I feel so proud... to have you as my Super Grandpa.
You know what they say... the devil only attacks the strongest people. IT gave you kidney failure and hypertension. Going with you to the hospital were a mix of sadness, worry and happiness. And when the hospital decided to keep you, visiting you was a bit painful... knowing that you were suffering. But each time that smile broke through on that toothless mouth, I felt the angels fly back to my side (: You moved me to tears when you accepted Christ. I saw you become weaker though... still we'd pray for you in Miracle Service, at home... But we couldn't visit you everyday. Work got in the way. But there you remained, my Super Grandpa.
Maybe yesterday's meteor shower were the angels flying to take you home (:
I know you're gone... gone home to God's side. That's why I'm comforted, not grieved. Well, I've had these 19 years with you - had your hand to hold, had you to hug and to have as my Super Grandpa (: I'm not content... I want to have you around again... but I know its God's time to have you now. I'm still not willing to let go... but I know God'll teach me how to in time. But maybe I'll be able to smile like you, through this adversity and the many adversities I'll encounter ahead. I'm going to try to not cry and be strong, just for you. I'm sorry I didn't spend as much time as I should have with you. I love you Gong-gong. Although I never told you... I want to watch airplanes with you again.
To my Super Grandpa, I'm missing you.
With much much much love,
Sharyl
"Don't mourn someone's death. Celebrate his life." - Anon
Dear Grandpa,
I remember. I just wanted to tell you that T_T. I remember when I was young and you loved me so much that you took me to the airport everyday. I remember standing at the viewing gallery with you, and we used to watch the airplanes take off. Sometimes, you'd hold me so tight that I'd have a little hand print on my side. But I knew it was because you couldn't bear to drop me. Your laugh was so wholesome and so hearty, it would infect me with smiles and joy ^^ Can you remember the time you took us out and the car door swung open as we left the carpark? Haha. The fuss we took to close the door. You kept the engine running and ran out to close it. Haha. I still don't know how you did it... But now I know, Its because you're my Super Grandpa (:
Then you had a stroke. And it took away your ability to move T___T But that didn't stop you from laughing when I did something silly (: Then the devil gave you another stroke... still you refused to stop laughing. Your new laughter was my source of unlimited joy ^^ When you laughed, the whole world stopped for a moment and it seemed like nothing in the world could ever get me down again... Even without the ability to raise your lips in a proper smile, you'd lift your hand (: And that was enough. I feel so proud... to have you as my Super Grandpa.
You know what they say... the devil only attacks the strongest people. IT gave you kidney failure and hypertension. Going with you to the hospital were a mix of sadness, worry and happiness. And when the hospital decided to keep you, visiting you was a bit painful... knowing that you were suffering. But each time that smile broke through on that toothless mouth, I felt the angels fly back to my side (: You moved me to tears when you accepted Christ. I saw you become weaker though... still we'd pray for you in Miracle Service, at home... But we couldn't visit you everyday. Work got in the way. But there you remained, my Super Grandpa.
Maybe yesterday's meteor shower were the angels flying to take you home (:
I know you're gone... gone home to God's side. That's why I'm comforted, not grieved. Well, I've had these 19 years with you - had your hand to hold, had you to hug and to have as my Super Grandpa (: I'm not content... I want to have you around again... but I know its God's time to have you now. I'm still not willing to let go... but I know God'll teach me how to in time. But maybe I'll be able to smile like you, through this adversity and the many adversities I'll encounter ahead. I'm going to try to not cry and be strong, just for you. I'm sorry I didn't spend as much time as I should have with you. I love you Gong-gong. Although I never told you... I want to watch airplanes with you again.
With much much much love,
Sharyl
Praise the Lord!
I've been thoroughly blessed and I WILL NOT LET THE EXAMINATIONS GET ME DOWN!
I'm posting this song because it makes me happy ((:
Yay to literal straight-forwardness XDD
Wish your Kiss :3
I'm posting this song because it makes me happy ((:
Yay to literal straight-forwardness XDD
Wish your Kiss :3
Monday, November 16, 2009
The Green Gummy bear Amongst the Lakerols
Today was particularly sunny day.
I woke up today feeling a little morose, because I hadn't completed the studying I was planning to complete yesterday. Now here at 3.30, time is still passing me by on a freight train. But I have no qualms about simmering down to write about my feelings XD
Still, its not very often that a moment like this comes by (: Its quiet now. Eileen is murmuring about the cold and Calvin has just left. The weather outside is perfect for a good run around the neighbourhood XD Although I'm cooped up in here, I'm somewhat... content.
Haha. Eileen just threatened to eat all my sweets.
The sweet box is standing to my right with the cover open. Its a bit bulgy because of all the gummybears Eileen just stuffed down its 'throat'. Its a red Lakerol box. ... stuffed with gummy bears. Its not often that you get that XP I left the cap open and now it smells of strawberry and lime. Haha. Surprisingly, its a lovely combination. Or maybe its the company I've had this day that makes it all the sweeter to smell ^^
The clouds outside are like cotton-candy in its generator. It looks like they all have somewhere to go, but they're taking their time to stroll. As much as my heart is still racing from the fact that the examinations are coming, I'm glad God still takes the time to paint us a lovely picture for today (:
There's God loving us outside.
And here are my friends, loving me on the inside ^^ ... of the building. Hahaha.
Thanks Eileen and Calvin ((: I enjoyed studying with you guys today ^^
I woke up today feeling a little morose, because I hadn't completed the studying I was planning to complete yesterday. Now here at 3.30, time is still passing me by on a freight train. But I have no qualms about simmering down to write about my feelings XD
Still, its not very often that a moment like this comes by (: Its quiet now. Eileen is murmuring about the cold and Calvin has just left. The weather outside is perfect for a good run around the neighbourhood XD Although I'm cooped up in here, I'm somewhat... content.
Haha. Eileen just threatened to eat all my sweets.
The sweet box is standing to my right with the cover open. Its a bit bulgy because of all the gummybears Eileen just stuffed down its 'throat'. Its a red Lakerol box. ... stuffed with gummy bears. Its not often that you get that XP I left the cap open and now it smells of strawberry and lime. Haha. Surprisingly, its a lovely combination. Or maybe its the company I've had this day that makes it all the sweeter to smell ^^
The clouds outside are like cotton-candy in its generator. It looks like they all have somewhere to go, but they're taking their time to stroll. As much as my heart is still racing from the fact that the examinations are coming, I'm glad God still takes the time to paint us a lovely picture for today (:
There's God loving us outside.
And here are my friends, loving me on the inside ^^ ... of the building. Hahaha.
Thanks Eileen and Calvin ((: I enjoyed studying with you guys today ^^
Why does hair smell so bad?
Okay. This is just a random piece of trivia XDD haha. Brought to you by the fact that I'm in the library, my ass is numb and I feel bored with all the BS101 reeling through my head. Haha.
Have you ever burnt a strand of your own hair before? I did. By accident. But I would like very much not to talk about it. It smelt terrible! Something like being locked in a room with a gorilla with a bad case of the runs and he cuts the cheese right in front of your face which is tied to his rear-end.
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This is because of DISULPHIDE BONDS in your hair. Yes. -highlighthighlight- The smell we detect in farts is generated by Hydrogen Sulphide. The very thing that thermophillic bacteria in sea vents emit deep under water. These disulphide bonds are the forces that hold keratin (a protein) in your hair tightly together so that it would have structural and tensile strength. (High tensile strength means that you can support about 300 people by your hair alone!) When you burn your hair, the combustion causes the disulphide bonds to break and the sulfydyl groups to be released as hydrogen sulphide. And as such, we should never ever burn our hair for fun. Because it STINKS.
-bows- Thank you. Haha.
On the side note, keratin is also strengthened by the present of small amino acids like glycine and alanine to ensure the tight-packing of all the tropocollagen strands into a large macrofibril (: That's why cavemen drag their wives around by their hair.
Talking about nice hair, I must now tell the whole world, I LOVE EILEEN HOW
Because she's a loving, caring friend who has my well-being at heart. (: <3
Have you ever burnt a strand of your own hair before? I did. By accident. But I would like very much not to talk about it. It smelt terrible! Something like being locked in a room with a gorilla with a bad case of the runs and he cuts the cheese right in front of your face which is tied to his rear-end.
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This is because of DISULPHIDE BONDS in your hair. Yes. -highlighthighlight- The smell we detect in farts is generated by Hydrogen Sulphide. The very thing that thermophillic bacteria in sea vents emit deep under water. These disulphide bonds are the forces that hold keratin (a protein) in your hair tightly together so that it would have structural and tensile strength. (High tensile strength means that you can support about 300 people by your hair alone!) When you burn your hair, the combustion causes the disulphide bonds to break and the sulfydyl groups to be released as hydrogen sulphide. And as such, we should never ever burn our hair for fun. Because it STINKS.
-bows- Thank you. Haha.
On the side note, keratin is also strengthened by the present of small amino acids like glycine and alanine to ensure the tight-packing of all the tropocollagen strands into a large macrofibril (: That's why cavemen drag their wives around by their hair.
Talking about nice hair, I must now tell the whole world,
Because she's a loving, caring friend who has my well-being at heart. (: <3
Mentos and all that is green~
I must take this time to praise the Lord (: Unwittingly, my entire day just whisked past O.O I didn't even have the time to double-take. My days started out with a now-usual trip to the library at 8.30 am to reserve seats for Eileen and I. And before I can even say glycosylphosphatidylinositol linker, its 9.15pm and I'm munching on a banana!
... Okay. So maybe the banana isn't that important XD
I wonder who first coined the phrase "time really flies". Because now, together with the invention of e-mail (which is now succeeded by SMS) and microwave ovens, TIME WARPS. Hahaha. Bad pun. But yes it does. It has a space-time-continuum-altering device that allows it to become tomorrow before you even realise yesterday had passed you by.
On the way back home from my tutee's house, I was rather despondent... It had been 7 hours since I last hit the books and I wasted it on travelling. Haha. Ugh. Oh, I wanted so much to be given a teleportation device thing-a-ma-gig at that very moment so I could just 'beam' home. But I didn't. And so I continued walking. Meanwhile, Time was racing ahead of me, making funny faces while I ate its dust.
But not wanting to really waste time, I decided that maybe I could meditate on the Lord instead (: I switch the song on my nano to 'This is our God'. And began to just think about the things He has taught me. Of course, I was still getting distracted by the world around me, but as I thought back to what has happened over the course of this week, I began to really see...
I saw a loving Lord who stood by my side and held me back in embrace when I wanted to ... urm ... add a 'fullstop' to my 'essay' (shall we say?). He reminded me this week that the Lord only reprimands those He loves and if we taste the whip, its because He wants to teach us something that will stay with us forever (: He also showed me the importance of friendship and understanding ((: and the meaning of staying true to your love~ ^^ Then suddenly, from the deep recesses of my mind, a single soft but adamant voice rang out...
And just like the rainbow God painted across the sky after Noah came out from the ark, a flood of green - people wearing green, green kites, green bags, green shoes, just appeared before me out of the .. green XD haha. When the train stopped, it was (just nice!) in the green section. I know it sounds childish, me noticing all the 'greenery', but if you were standing in my position, you'd be moved to tears too. Alright, so I didn't cry in public... but the message God sent was loud and clear (:
(:
J'ai confiance en moi-meme maintenant~
Parce que j'ai confiance en mon Dieu ~ ^^
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Random Acts of Mentos
It is so very comforting to know that a person with a real heart DOES exist in each and every one of us ^^ I'm studying in Lee Wee Nam with Eileen right now. And we were just offered mentos by this complete stranger sitting opposite us (: As minor as it sounds, his simple act of kindness has really made my day ^^
Thank you stranger!
Be Thou my Wisdom~
Although not as hip or jumpy at our modern-day songs, I think the most earnest of hearts is the true secret ingredient to a good song (: I hope that one day, when my time comes, God'll give me the strength to sing this song upon my deathbed. Then finally be received into His arms ^^
Be Thou my Vision, O Lord.
The only one in my sight, from henceforth until I arrive at thy Throne ^^
Forever.
Je t'aime, mon Dieu. Toujour~
Love,
Sharyl
Be Thou my Vision (:
Okay. So I've finally gotten a legitimate blog, at the final push from Hann Bin. Haha. Well... hmm.. its a very green blog, as you can see XD I can't guarantee I'll update it everyday or anything... but when I get the inspiration, this is where everything will go~
Life is pretty messy for me now (: and creating this blog came in a moment of boredom when I was studying about partially permeable membranes (thefluidmosaicmodelanditsdifferentfactorsofinfluenceliketemperaturecompositionandvanderwaalsforcesblahlblahblah), believe it or not. Haha. But yes! I will update again soon with a proper post (: Hopefully...
Love,
Sharyl
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