Dear Grandpa,
I remember. I just wanted to tell you that T_T. I remember when I was young and you loved me so much that you took me to the airport everyday. I remember standing at the viewing gallery with you, and we used to watch the airplanes take off. Sometimes, you'd hold me so tight that I'd have a little hand print on my side. But I knew it was because you couldn't bear to drop me. Your laugh was so wholesome and so hearty, it would infect me with smiles and joy ^^ Can you remember the time you took us out and the car door swung open as we left the carpark? Haha. The fuss we took to close the door. You kept the engine running and ran out to close it. Haha. I still don't know how you did it... But now I know, Its because you're my Super Grandpa (:
Then you had a stroke. And it took away your ability to move T___T But that didn't stop you from laughing when I did something silly (: Then the devil gave you another stroke... still you refused to stop laughing. Your new laughter was my source of unlimited joy ^^ When you laughed, the whole world stopped for a moment and it seemed like nothing in the world could ever get me down again... Even without the ability to raise your lips in a proper smile, you'd lift your hand (: And that was enough. I feel so proud... to have you as my Super Grandpa.
You know what they say... the devil only attacks the strongest people. IT gave you kidney failure and hypertension. Going with you to the hospital were a mix of sadness, worry and happiness. And when the hospital decided to keep you, visiting you was a bit painful... knowing that you were suffering. But each time that smile broke through on that toothless mouth, I felt the angels fly back to my side (: You moved me to tears when you accepted Christ. I saw you become weaker though... still we'd pray for you in Miracle Service, at home... But we couldn't visit you everyday. Work got in the way. But there you remained, my Super Grandpa.
Maybe yesterday's meteor shower were the angels flying to take you home (:
I know you're gone... gone home to God's side. That's why I'm comforted, not grieved. Well, I've had these 19 years with you - had your hand to hold, had you to hug and to have as my Super Grandpa (: I'm not content... I want to have you around again... but I know its God's time to have you now. I'm still not willing to let go... but I know God'll teach me how to in time. But maybe I'll be able to smile like you, through this adversity and the many adversities I'll encounter ahead. I'm going to try to not cry and be strong, just for you. I'm sorry I didn't spend as much time as I should have with you. I love you Gong-gong. Although I never told you... I want to watch airplanes with you again.
With much much much love,
Sharyl
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