Okay. I sectioned it. If you don't want to hear this portion, please proceed to the next one, comprendo?~ (: I even have the music to match! For like Socrates once said, the melody is a vital part of a play and of life.
The Emo Portion
Yup! Its the end of my exams but for some reason, all the hype about the end of exams isn't really all I made it out to be. The end of exams kinda ushered in a few disappointments for me. For example, I lost my matriculation in the sea of people rushing out of the hall. Haha. I bet its stuck to someone's shoe right this moment. But we shouldn't talk about depressing things! Because God is good and bad things never last (: ... I suppose its partially because I find it infinitely impossible to really talk about bad things on a blog. The world's messed up as it is.
Donovan told me yesterday that I had to be the happiest girl in the world. Well, I'm not. Its just that I've seen enough gore, made enough mistakes, given my heart away to things that turn on me too many times and cried enough tears to know that nothing on this world is worth crying for. That's why I smile. The smile you see everyday is a fragmented one - a desperate war cry against the things that threaten to engulf me. A war cry I'm still attempting to share. And every time someone smiles, it redeems my sundered soul again.
I don't know the first thing about being truly happy, but I do know that I'm the most blessed girl in world ((: God, my Family, a good home, awesome friends and a loving boyfriend ^^ But as the world goes, it does mess up your perception of that and sometimes it feels like you're the poorest, most neglected person on earth.
But we just have to remind ourselves again ^^ There's just too much to live for.
The Happy-pappy Part
I went out with Eileen today! Haha. She told me to pick any movie, so I picked out 'Mulan'. Y'know, the new approximately-historically-correct film about the age-old tale of the chinese heroine who posed as a male in the Chinese army? -breathe- Haha. It turns out that its was a big loud and violent... AND INCREDULOUS! But it wasn't the killing or the pent-up Chinese emotion displayed in political dialectics that got me on the edge of my seat. (nor was it the seemingly misplaced caucasian in the Rouran camp...) It was the emotional content of the whole love-hate relationship between Hua Mulan and her duties as General (And of course her feelings for the 7th Prince). I found myself crying over and over again every time she came to an emotional impasse. Maybe its because I felt just as lost in life. But her victory over her own psychological hurdles and obstacles soon won her the place of 'General' (: A woman~
Later, I was dragged all over Jurong Point. Okay. Not dragged (: Because I was enjoying the shopping too XDD -points to new pair of shoes- They're worth it, I swear! But yes ^^ Shopping with Eileen proved to be an FANTABULOUSLY Awesome idea ((: Haha. Although Eileen was pretty tired after that (and she still had the strength to pull herself to CCK!), and I was pretty pooped out, I kinda liked being dragged around Jurong Point. Haha (: Love you, Eileen!
Oh oh! Before meeting Eileen, I met made a trip down to the LWN library to see our awesome new library friends, well, just one of them - Donovan. And he gave me a bun! (: I know it doesn't sound like much to you, but for a BREAD FANATIC like me, its like receiving a gold bar XPP An edible gold bar!
and my fingernails are now LIME GREEN
maybeonedayI'lltellyouandyou'dunderstand.untilthen,i'msorry.youweren'tsupposedtomeanthismuchtome.turnleft.I'llheadright.we'llmeetagainoneday.promisemeyou'llsmilewhenwedo.
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